So today, my LLMD told me that her successful patients don’t spend much time on Lyme sites, chat sites, info sites, support groups, etc. I may be misunderstanding her, which is darn common for me these days, but until I get well, and because I am. . .okay, so maybe I’m a little obsesssed with Lyme.
What does it mean to take a break from Lyme? My acupuncturist recommended this to me last week. My oldest son’s chiro said we were all too focused on the illness.
Here’s what I don’t get. When you are fighting for your life, what does it look like? The way I have always done the big “fight for your life” dance is by immersing myself in information. Obsessing? Yes.
Now, how do I take a lyme vacation? I don’t know. I can’t take a lyme vacation. It is always in my awareness. The pain in my leg, my air hunger, my fatigue, the treatments, the supplements, the meds. I do know this though: I haven’t been writing. My teaching sucks at best. My writing is non-existent. Granted, my brain doesn’t work as well as it used to, my organization (in thought and life) is warped at best, but I could still be blogging. And today, I make a commitment to blogging daily. Just one blog post. I’ll start there. Walk with me?