I’ve been continuously moved by this link since I saw it yesterday. It’s from ProHealth.com and it’s good. I seriously can’t stop thinking about it. It’s been like a smack in the head. All day long. I get it. Really. I just don’t know how to apply it.
Dr. Sarah Myhill asserts that healthy people have 1000 pounds of energy per day, and people with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (or other Lyme Like illnesses) have 100 pounds to spend. Okay. I can live with that. My body makes me live with that EVERY single day. Day in and day out, I have 1/10 of the energy that most people have per day. Okay. Radical Acceptance. Got that.
But then, she goes on to say that people like me need to bank at least 20 pounds of that energy every day in order to actually heal.
I go back and forth between accepting that as true, and just being really angry about it. FIRST, I only get 1/10 of the energy most people get to do what the world expects of us as societal members. And then, I have to hold 1/5 of that pittance in reserve or I’m operating in a serious deficit. Okay. Fine. I’ll accept that.
Truth: I am so far in healing debt, and I have no idea how to get out.
What the hell does that look like to hold 20 pounds in reserve? I’ve never been particularly good at math, but every way I try to add it up, it doesn’t mesh.
I try to use that 1/10 that I get to do it all. Raise my family, make money, eat, go to medical appointments, fight for services that other disabled people get without much effort. There’s no time for rest, unless my body or my blood pressure makes me. There’s little interaction with the healthy world. And I rarely go ANYWHERE that isn’t required by my illness.
And even with those cut backs, I operate in a deficit every single day.
I keep thinking about Ruth Hayden, who is an amazing financial person who works with Women and Money and sometimes with Couples and Money. I’ve taken classes with her and she lays it out in simple terms. You have X amount of income and X amount of expense, and you have to make them match. You do that by EITHER making more income or by reducing expenses. Or both. It is simple math.
I’m trying to apply that concept to my available energy. I reduce expenses and gain more energy. Simple math. But somehow, with a tired body screaming at me. . . and so much that has to get done, I just don’t see the equation working out.
I’ll take any advice you have to offer me. What would YOU do if you went from having 1,000 pounds of energy to spend to having 80. How would you live your life differently?
Help me with my deficit reduction plan. I’m all ears.